Well I have been up since 3am. When I finally got my newborn down to sleep at 7 am my bedroom door is opened wide by my 3 year old declaring she's hungry. I get up drag myself to the kitchen and put on my coffee before my day starts in a full run. I do laundry everyday yet it's never done. I clean the bathroom everyday yet it's eternally dirty. My bedroom's a disaster zone since us and baby live there together adn theres not enough time in the day to take care of those things and pay attention to my 3 year old too. So things get left undone, uncleaned, and not put away but I don't feel guilty b/c time goes by so fast and I know they'll be moments when I wish the little pink room was a mess and I had someone to help with picking up all those little ponies. So I rub my eyes and smile as the madness begins. This video shows why it's all worth it.

Like most things in life I dread this too seemed much worse than it really turned out to be. I was so sad when my mom left b/c I didn't know how I was going to do everything on my own. However, Jason has helped out some and Anna has stepped up to the big sister plate and is very helpful. She loves her sister constantly wanting to give her kisses and telling her she loves her.

It's still hard at time to give her the time I think she deserves and get everything done that needs to be done but it is doable! I was so afraid it wasn't doable. However, I just needed to remember Phil. 4:13 I guess. It has been a very stressful trying time for me and my marriage. The moving, the isolation, and having a new baby on top of all of that. However, they always say if, "God brings you to it, He will bring you through it." I feel that I am on my way through it all now and I am very grateful. God has brought me to it and through it more than once. He is always faithful, not always easily understood but always faithful. lol

Well Ava is sleeping through her feeding so I am pumping and Anna is having TV time. We joined the church here and the Sunday school class has been bringing us meals. It was so nice of them. I've done that for new mommies everywhere we've lived in Ocala, FL and in Tampa, FL and when we moved here I didn't expect anyone to do it for me b/c we didn't know anyone here but guess what?? God had another little helpful surprise in mind and one day Jan a girl I'd met in my class just called and said I am on my way to your house to bring you a meal how do I get there. Then the meals started coming in from there. We've only been at the church a little while and we are already receiving blessings. God is good! Sometimes you just lose sight of that when you don't understand the circumstances around you sometimes. I know I did.

Well Ava's awake now duty calls!